I’m lying down in my car. I’m feeling awful. On top of the severe throbbing hurt in my heart from depression, I’m feeling my head dizzy, and sweating. I feel severe amounts of paranoia and My hands feel shaky. Dry mouth is the minor symptom.
There is a whole additional set of awful symptoms that usually surface when I try a new medication. Out of desperation from feeling awful with my debilitating depression, I looked forward to trying out Wellbutrin.
Wellbutrin isn’t an SSRI. It’s something else. My doctor prescribed it for my depression after asking him for something aside from those evil SSRI’s. I tried it. I’m on Day #4 of Wellbutrin.
I took it slowly as I normally do when starting any med. 1/6 then 1/4 then 1/2. I didn’t experience much side effect so I went up to a full pill of 150 mg last night.
Today I’m feeling the effects. The most severe is the paranoia. It’s already too much to feel the agony of the depression pains in my heart and soul. Now this added chemical change in my brain causing paranoia is double trouble.
According to Wikipedia, Wellbutrin is a NDRI antidepressant.
NDRI = Norepinephrine Dopamine Reuptake Inhibitor
These Reuptake Inhibitor drugs prevent absorption of specific neurotransmitters to the synapses so they can be made available to affect our mood. The theory is that neurotransmitters are responsible for controlling the way we feel. And depression is a shortage of certain transmitters. I plan on researching more and explaining to you about how they work.
Dear admin
Please stop this medication. Do roqya i told you many times do roqya. Read the koran and tawakkul illa allah even if its hard. even when you get paranoid read your koran listen to it. Do roqya!! Two years ago i was in the same position as you. And roqya changed my life. Tawakkul illa allaah. You need tawakkul. Believe me when you feel the sweetnes of tawakkul there is nothing els what can make you happy. And take your depression away. You need tawakkul in you life. Don’t give up. Stop those pills its doesn’t going to help you. Allah will. Read his book. You will feel happy. Even if its hard, even if you get parranoid read it. All your paranoia’s will stop after you avoid the pannick atacks and weswes and feelings. Its just shaytan he is playing with you. He is weak. Its just toughts and feelings witch doesn’t belong to you. Its from shaytan. I know your scared but Don’t give up. I know you get there one day in sha allaah. May allaah bring us all shifa.
Thanks for your concern. Brother. Many years ago, I felt so much bliss and sweetness of iman and khushu’. I spent two years doing ruqya after being affected by shaitan. I’ve done it. And the past couple of years, I’ve had so much terrible emotions that I am unable to read Quran or pray. I still try to pray and read quran and study Islam as much as I am able to. I hate medicine, I really do, but as we were taught by the Prophet (pbuh). Take all the means possible, then put your trust in Allah. Like Sh. Raatib Al-Nabulsi put it, Take every means possible, as if it is everything, THEN afterwards, put your trust in Allah, as if the means were nothing at all.
But anyways, I am plannning on getting off this medicine, because I hate the bad feelings. I’m on 75 mg right now.
I know the feelings of terrible emotions. But thats just shaytan you need to ignor it as mutch as possible. And believe me when you laugh at shaytan and his misserble plans to destroy you. You will find peace in sha allah. Get to know you enemy and his plans. Go back to roqya and ask allah for help in it. You are depressed because all of those emotions en feelings en toughts about islam. You can’t get the kushu3 and feeling of eman back with medicine. You need the sunnah medicine for that type of sickness. And eman isn’t based on emotions and feelings and toughts. Its based on actions. I am on the same road as you are fighting against it almost 3 years and i know how terreble this is but allah is all wise he knows exactly why you need to go though this depression. You may not know but he knows. Trust him in his plans. He will get you out of this soon in sha allaah. If not in this dunya. Thank him for it he will reward you in aghira in sha allaah. Please don’t let shaytan destroy your life read the tafseer of surah wa doha. May allah cure us all in sha allaah.