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Late last year, Fall to winter of 2014, I dealt with one of the most awful experiences ever. What was it? It was a Jinn Influence. ?? ???? .
It was really different from my ocd and anxiety stuff I have been dealing with for years. For the first time, I was dealing with emotions that I no longer felt were coming from me. I mean it completely felt like it was me, but they were so strange, bizzare, and disturbing that I felt like I was taken over by something else.
The biggest issue I was having was when I was reading the Quran, or praying. When I would try to read, I would feel awful, disconnected from it, disturbed from hearing, wanting to blurt out I don’t believe in any of this, (auzhubillah). I would feel anger towards hearing the quran, or hearing anything about Allah in general.
I have a library of Islamic books (albeit not that large), but when I was influenced by the the Jinn, I had a hatred for studying, and I didn’t even want to set foot inside my library to look at the books. I had urges against attending lectures and knowledge, something that I have always loved doing ever since I became a practicing muslim.
There are plenty of other strange feelings I’ve had when I was under the Jinn influence.
All my negative emotions were put on overdrive. It was like an Anxiety Disorder on steroids. I was feeling severe paranoia at times, to the point where it felt like schizophrenia. After experiencing the Jinn influence, I now believe that severe disorders like Schizophrenia are indeed proprogated by Jinns.
I felt so severely anxious and I felt extreme bouts of terror that I felt like I couldn’t even go to my school and interact, it was simply too difficult. I had been going to school for two years and dealing with it, then suddenly I felt like it was unbearable and feeling too severe anxiety that I know was not coming from my normal self.
I’ll save more of my experiences for later posts insha’Allah. We need to talk about the causes of this Jinn Influence / Jinn Possession, as well as my experiences with relapses the last few days.
Insha’Allah, stay tuned and comments are welcomed, ladies and gentlemen.