Why didn’t they tell me about Al-Rahman? Why didn’t speakers talk about how huge and encompassing Allah’s Rahmah is? Why didn’t they explain to me and focus on how Allah loves us and wants good for us? Why after 7 years of practicing Islam activitely and learning as much as I could about the religion, did I never learn about Allah’s Rahmah? Why did they always talk about Allah in such a harsh way, as if He wants to punish everybody?
They warned people about,
Punishment; about Allah’s punishment being severe; about how we have to protect ourselves from Allah’s punishment, and that the judgement is very harsh and in-depth and not a single thing is left out, so we have to watch every single little thing that we do, or else we will be taken into account? And we have to constantly fear Allah, and think “how can we sleep at night, knowing that we may end up in hellfire? And that we have to look at our sins as mountains, and think how big an injustice we have done, for every little sin, because hypocrites don’t make sins a big deal.”
Why did they always say that,
“You have to earn his love, the goal is to not to love, but to be loved. Don’t take advantage of Allah’s Rahmah. Yea yea, he’s merciful, but his punishment is severe.” It’s easy to say He’s merciful, but don’t take it easy on yourself and watch out, for Allah’s punishment, it is very harsh indeed. And We have to love Allah with all of this in mind, because Allah throws people who don’t love Him into hellfire. And we have to feel and fear we are hypocrites because all the sahabah felt they were. And be afraid that we don’t believe.”
In the end, what has happened? What has become of our opinion of Allah? It has become completely tarnished. It has become an awful idea about who Allah is. It has made Allah seem like He is always angry, ready to destroy, wants to make us feel depressed, and looking forward to punish all of us, because,
“Humans are all misguided and wrongdoers, and He will fill up hellfire with humans and jinn, because that is justice, and we cannot dare question Allah’s actions, because that would be arrogant and we just have to submit humbly to who Allah is, and accept these facts about him.”
Oh yea, and,
“We have to never forget to keep counting all the blessings, or else we will be guilty of kufr and being thankless, and we will be questioned about that and why we don’t have any gratitude in our hearts to Allah.”
And we can’t forget,
“In our youth, we have to fear more than we have hope, only when we are older and about to die, that’s when we should have more hope and less fear.”
What an awful awful concept of Allah. What a devastation all these ideas are to our hope in Allah, our love for Him, or desire and excitement to meet Him.
May Allah cleanse our minds and hearts of these awful ideas, and put true love in our hearts!
Ameen Ya Rabb!