I have so much going for me. I have knowledge. I'm on the brink of landing a well paying job, with all the learning opportunities I'm pursuing. I have amazing resources available here in the DFW area for my professional career. I'm confident in my abilities to succeed. I have a great family, very loving and supportive wife, kids and parents. I have the opportunity to … [Read more...] about Blessings & Curses
What I've been experiencing is hell. Depression to the max. Averaging around 9 / 10 on the depression scales. Feeling myself turning into an evil cold hearted person, with no goodness left. Feeling like any moment I'm ready to move on to the next phase of my life and end this one, that is moving aimlessly. It seriously has been going on way too long. Going on 3 years of … [Read more...] about A step out of depression dungeon
Why did today happen? Emotionally I’m talking about. Why did I have such severe, ridiculous, dehabiliting depression? Why did I have to suffer the ENTIRE time, driving back from Baton Rouge, for 11 hours, from 12 p.m. to 10:30. With severe severe, hurt, engulfing of the heart, heart, throbbing, jolting, severe pain, getting lit on fire by anything and everything. Why did I … [Read more...] about Why This Depression?
It's hard to describe the severity the emotional experience of depression brings. After I feel like I'm making progress in plowing through my derpression, I experience a day like today, where I feel such severe emotions from my past, bursting out of my heart, as if it will explode. The experience is not from the typical array of emotions that human beings experience, hence … [Read more...] about Disengaging Depression
??? ???? ?????? ?????? There was nothing more beloved to me than to leave the party tonight, filled with hurt and pain, and to sit on the bathroom floor and to allow myself to feel my hurt in the depth of my heart. To explore and feel truly what is bothering me, instead of always just forced to ignore it, and focus on whats around me at the expense of myself. When I went … [Read more...] about Party Pooper