??? ???? ?????? ?????? Stress has damaged my heart, mind, and soul. Too much stress in religion has made me miserable. Wanting some peace from religion is the main thing I wanted, but I am stuck dealing with the misery and the stress and pressure, which led me to a severely poor opinion of God. And it is incredibly hard to get out, and have hope in this spiritual depression … [Read more...] about Rewarding those who “do”
I wake up, dreading the day ahead of me. I dread how poor my relationshp with Quran has gotten. I dread the feelings of idleness of free time, coupled with my core belief of always having to "do". The despair that has infected my heart towards Islam is crazy. I struggle with holding on to any semblance of iman by performing the basic actions required of a muslim (namely the … [Read more...] about Oh those stubborn core beliefs
Most have probably heard of the famous quote by the philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche: "God is Dead" -Nietzsche in "Parable of the Madman" He didn't literally mean that God was alive then perished. What he meant was that the concept of God being eradicated in the minds and hearts of people. People are the ones who turned the Ever Living God into a "figment of people's … [Read more...] about Nietzsche, Secularism, and Self Esteem
Deep down, rooted in our hearts since we were children, we believed that we are unacceptable for some reason or another. Through the years, it became the root of our stress which led to our anxiety condition we face with today. One of my major ocd's surrounds wasting time and doing something productive. It changes and I have compulsions changing depending on what I'm focused … [Read more...] about I’m bad cuz…….. I’m good cuz……..
I'm racing and feeling the uncontrollable compulsions to quickly finish my shopping before they close the shops for maghrib prayer. Is there some meeting or business or pressing work I have to get done at home, that I'm rushing? Nope. It's just gotta be done. The shopping simply MUST be done and I gotta rush. Oh no. I can't remember where the store was, and time is … [Read more...] about OCD – rooting out the compulsions